When I first set up my pole about to weeks ago, I hopped right on it and did some moves. ( It took us a whole day to fix our ceiling and get the pole to fit in my little basement) So I was just so happy to try it out. I know now NEVER EVER EVER..... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeevvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeerrrrrrrr to pole when i'm not warm. I have had many arm and joint issues. My knees constantly crack my wrists have been busted a few times and over all I can just see me hoping on the pole as a creeky bad idea, yet I did it.
Now I don't remember the exact "action" or thing I did to hurt my elbow but I think it was just a bang on the elbow. It hurt at first but I didn't think it was a huge deal.
But the next day my elbow was pretty sore I would move it side to side and around thinking by forcing it to move around and being able to handle the pain (my pain tolerance is very high I've been know to have a broken wrist for a week before I get a cast... aggg rugby ) so i was moving around and it did that tight pain thing but I didn't think it was THAT bad. Then a few days later my wrist started acting up. Sort of sore yet my elbow felt fine. I couldn't move my wrist back and forth (sideways). I but a wrist splint thing on it and that helps me force it not to move. If I don't have something on it I forget and use it like I never hurt it.
So the wrist hurt a little and now I get strange pains in the elbow and my pinky and ring finger is tingling. I knew then I hit a nerve.
Now it only hurts when I'm trying to sleeping and the way i try to position my elbow and arm. I can move my fingers and everything and right now i just took off the wrist splint and my hands seem fine. Its just one way I move my elbow or wrist and bang the tingling and some uncomfortable feelings happen.
I went to the doctor and he told me I hurt my ulnar and It will take a long time to heal :( He brushed me off and didn't tell me much except to keep resting it. I basically have been doing all my research online ( which is SO SCARY) some sites talk about forever damage other carpol tunnel. Ugh I just don't know the EXTENT of the damage. Did I really really eff it up or if I rest it for a long time will I be good again? Or is this tingling and pain just something else to add to my long list of pains to learn to deal with.
I feel like im living in a 50 year old body and I'm only 19 :( I have had so many injuries the past 3 years that by the time i am 50 i;ll be so stiff. That's part of the reason I wanted to pole, to keep me in shape and keep me flexible so I can not feel 50 when I am 50 :( now I have pain in my hand like a old person..great
This ulnar injury is really making me upset. I just got my pole, i see people poling and I want to go practice. I want to go to the gym but I cant lift with my arm and I don't want my right side to get all worked out and have a weak left arm:(
I'm just happy its not on my good arm but still. I can't lie I've still been on the pole. Not using my left arm but trying and learning my known spins with one hand. But still I wanted to put my 110% into poling and going back to working out and now I feel like I'm 2000 steps back. Plus to top it all off I have the NASTIEST cold right now. Which is just awesome cause you know the weather is great yet I'm dying.
I just don't know the extent of how I should rest it and how its going to effect pole. This just sucks.
Sorry for the depressing self pity tone but really I'm just so upset I could cry I'm such a BABY when :( I don't or can't get what I want boo :(
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