finally got a pole!!

So I finally got my very own x pole!! So happy about it too. Only bummer is I banged my wrist as soon as we finally got it up and now I'll trying to stay away. It's hard I still practice on my good arm. I can manage a front hook/ballerina spin one handed now. Which is so great cause I remember first trying it and being so bad I told my teacher. "I'll never get this", and now not only can I do it when my arms both are good but I can do it one handed on my right(dominat) side. WOOO Poling makes me happy, just wish the pain in my wrist would go away!

Anyways so my pole is a 45' TG X-pert Xpole. I LOVE IT! Its thinner then the standard size pole but I love it anyways. It's not like it would be impossible to learn back to a 50' like when I was at Studio's but Vanessa will be teaching me for a while and she teaches on it. It's better for gripping with your hands but harder with your legs! But I'll master it don't worry!

I had to take out ceiling tiles and put a piece of ply wood on the joist to fit the min height of 7'4 for my pole to fit down here. This will be good enough for now and once I need more space and am that good I'll hopefully have my own place. I have pictures of Steve setting it up for me. It took a a day or so because at first I was trying to put it upstairs and the adjuster got stuck and I needed Steve's strong muscles to turn it. He promised to make it work down here and he did. I thank him for that but he's really pissing me off right now so I don't give 2 shits about him.

Now I'm just planning what I'm doing with my pole space. I want to cover up the ply wood and gap in the roof. Also want lots more mirrors. The one I have is only like a bit of the pole so its hard to see what I'm doing sometimes.

Also wanting to buy Studio Veena lessons but I won't till I have more cash and my wrist it healed. Ugh I hope it fixes up soon. It was in a good tensor thing but Steve thinks it makes sense to wake me up at 230 am to come get him wrist tensor and arm guard thing I've been wearing for a while because I hurt my wrist. Ya cause he needs them so bad, I bet he hurt his wrist lifting the cooler with all his clothes and shit the FIRST time he woke me up tonight to give him his shit. He is bi polar I swear. I just can't handle it. He is crazy. I always take him back but I think I really need to move on. Its hard because he is my first love but still he gives me a head ache.

Boys are dumb. Oh well I have pole, that's my good friend. Doesn't piss me off like my crazy boyfriend and crazy psycho bitch ex friends. Drama seriously stay away from me. I want to just run away and start a new life somewhere. Not knowing anyone. Forgetting everyone and just making new friends and relationships. Just living care free. This city is suffocating me and I feel like I'm digging and digging myself into a hole I can't get out of.

Now its almost 4 am, Steve has woken me up about ten times tonight to be a psycho fuck tard and now I think I'll try to get to sleep. I think I'll start blogging more. This helps me relax and get my mind of the CRAZIES!! Ha ha Oh well. More to come!!